Okay, so I haven't been focussing on my health and fitness goals AT ALL for January or February.
Truth be told, I've been in a bit of a depressed state. My job is horrible, my finances are a mess because the more unhappy I am the more I spend. Luckily, at some point in my life I switched from stress eating (so my weight has maintained since my weight loss in the summer) to stress shopping, but now I've made a mess of things. I'm not behind on anything (except some medical bills) but I am back to living week to week financially and it's adding even more stress. It's a horrible cycle and I can't seem to get out of it.
I have always known myself to be a 'starter.' I have many interests and many projects started - way more than I have projects that I've finished. I think I used them as a way to avoid reality. It is feeling like right now, I'm out of control and it's making me sick.
Over the next few days, I'm going to try to set some little goals for myself in the areas of health, fitness, financial, work, and projects. Even that list seems overwhelming right now but I am 41 for God's sake! I've got to figure out how normal people do it! I might just make a broad goal for March and then break that down into two-two week time frames. When I'm planning for school, I always start with the big picture and plan backwards and that works so maybe I can figure this out!
Maybe you'll regret my moving this to a more private space, because there might be more for you to listen to than just my positive cheers! Sorry.
Christine doll you are going to be okay. I love our new website because we can truly let it all out. This is going to be our healthy and healing blog!
ReplyDeleteSo I understand the depression completely. I was in a major funk these past two months myself and I am just coming out if it. Now all I'm thinking about is how much time I had lost that could have been used productively. Don't beat yourself up over it though it's not worth it. Think of the positives like maintaining your weight that is awesome! You should definitely be proud of yourself for accomplishing that! As for your shopping remember that no one is perfect and just this last year I myself had done a lot of retail therapy, because I was very unhappy at school. We all of our vices. Mine is food and shopping (when I have money)haha. It happens and admitting to it is just the beginning! Now we just need to work on it.
Financially my life is a mess also and it's gotten to the point where my family and I have to move out of our home. It's a horrible situation but we have changed our lifestyles accordingly. One thing that's helped us is planning ahead and talking about it with each other. I have had many conversations with my mom about it and each time a weight has been lifted from me. Sit down with the family or husband grab a pen and paper, and in the beginning of the week write down all the things that need to be bought or paid for by their importance. It could help I have done it before and it has done wonders. It is just a suggestion and I hope it can help. Get creative ;)
As for making little goals that sounds great! However if you feel like it is a bit much thats okay. Modify them. That's one of WW biggest rules. Don't try and go cold turkey on things ease your way into them. Like shopping, instead of 5 days try 4 days then 3. Same for eating and exercise. Start small. For exercise I will provide a couple links for you of this great at home walking program/videos. I'm going to get my mom to try them with me. It look's easy but it may surprise you. Try it three times a week then work up to five, and then get back to shredding. I think starting small has really helped me and maybe it can help you too!
As for your projects in January I planed to crochet 50 scarves by the end of the year and I am still working on my first one. haha So no worries it's great to have projects in the wings because it is a great stress reliever. Just don't think to much into it if you don't finish them in a month or weak, you get to it when you can. It's okay! I tend to over think things and it causes me a lot of stress. It's not fun but I'm working on and I am constantly reminding myself that everything happens for a reason so it's okay. Your okay :)
Now snap out of it and get yourself together! Your health is important.
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Ladies I am also stressed about finances right now, and so what did I do?? I went shopping over the weekend and spent way too much money. I guess I will have to budget pretty closely this week to make up for it.
ReplyDeleteFeb has pretty much been a bust for me. January was good and then it's like I just blew it. I am so glad that the days will be getting longer...maybe I can get outta this funk!! I am at work and its slow and for me($$$) that's not good. I am just about to go walk for my lunch break. It is blah outside but I HAVE to go do it. It's not raining anyways.Gosh I am a real bummer today, I am sorry ladies.
WE CAN DO THIS. Let's not get down(unless it's the good kind!!) and let's not give up.
You can do it Molly! It's been a rough month for us all and it's okay. It's a comfort to know we aren't alone and we are in this together. I am proud of you for walking! Keep it up.
ReplyDeleteThanks Sammy. I am sorry to hear that your family is having a rough time. You have eachother for support. God only gives us two things in this world...life & family. It sounds like you have a good close one(family) lean on eachother and you will prevail! We lost our home last year and it turned out to be ok :0)
ReplyDeleteChristine- I am glad that we moved away from your finding time page...now you have more freedom to say what's on your mind and/or vent it out. Spring break is coming soon and I hope that you take a bit of time for YOU. I know finances are tough but find something just for you, even if it is a day in the park alone with a good book or knitting project.
Everyday..Meditate or focus on breathing for 5 minutes. You will feel cleansed I promise.